Hashem is in charge of every button that you press even the wrong ones can sometimes be better than we thought!!

I just wanted to tell you the MOST incredible thing ever. You don't understand! These stories don't happen to me! Hashem is nuts!!! Ok so we were on the hotline last Thursday night and after we read Daughters of Dignity, some voice asked "What was that?" and we said the title and everything and moved on...
Later the person announced that we do not know her but her name is Rachel and how do we all know each other. We were so confused and say "Camp." As we continued a couple more questions popped up, like "So what exactly is this?" "Well we learn every night on here." "What do you mean?" And i got a little freaked out that she wasn't Jewish and it was just a little weird... and she explained that someone gave her the hotline number but she messed up the room code. But this girl stayed on the entire time. She remained all through 3 hours of learning not all of which she undestoond and then once it was only like 5 people left, she asked, "So you all go to yeshivas? Have you all been brought up religous." And we said yes and then asked totally hesitantly, "um, what's your background?"

This is going to blow you away. Here's her story: Well, some non Jewish person gave her that number and she by Hashem's total will messed onto our learning. Her grandparents were like old school religious and her parents weretotally anti-religion. A year and a half ago, she was diagnosed with cancer and sent to Maimonodes and her roomate was religious. Her parents made her switch rooms but she ended up back witht he religious girl. The religious girl always wore a skirt so Rachel asked her about it, and it made sense to her that if you cover your body, maye G-d will make your body better. So Rachel tried putting on a skirt and slowly became more religious and everything jsut got easier. Her parents are totally against it though (I even mentioned Aish.com because she mentioned R' Zelig Pliskin's books and she said that her parents filter her internet AGAINST the relgious stufff). Anyway, she now wears skirts and doesn;t even really think about, she sometimes does but she was saying how in the regular world, no one thinks of skirts covering the knees. The questions "Does it just cover or does it even reach your thighs?" But as she covered more and more, she just really saw how right it all was. But then, a few months ago, she just said forget it. And she was expecting fire and brimstone and the world to crash. But. Nothing happens. And she realized that the world doesn't work like that.. One time she even got a pair of jeans that she knew she would love and she cut it up and sewed it into a skirt- how crazy cool!!! weare all listening, mouths gaping open.

She also said a story about how she was discharged from the hospital for a few months, and she came home and decided that she was not eating meat any more, becoming vegetarian was an easy way to be kosher. Her mom was not happy and had a whole fight about it.
She had to head back to the hospital sooner than expected and had a feeding tube in her mouth. Right after she got off the feeding tube- the hospital began giving out kosher food. What crazy hashgacha!!

And she's still learning with a roommate and she is in public school, and lives in, get this, Brooklyn! And she has a crazy postive attutiude, such a cool, great attitude. And we were asking her questions, like how she keeps her emunah and how she got into all of this and how it felt to be becoming religous and sh was amazing! She was giving us chizuk!! This is so sent from Shamayim, it is nottt normal. Then it became just like 4 girls on and we were shmoozing and chilled and she asked us what different words we sai on the hotline meant and to explain things like Rosh Chodesh and Shabbos. She asked what Shabbos is like for us.. We began talking about Rosh Hashana and she has jsut no plans for ROsh Hashana.. I don't know what the significance of al this is, but I keep waiting for someone to say "Joke, sorry, shes my friend from whatever, there's a reason behind all this," but it's form hashem, most random coincidence, it's jus nuts, I can't get over it. We gave her an email address and she has emailed even and she has come back on the hotline 3 times. tonight, after, she asked what we learned exactly and I explained what each bok is. To keep coming and on and to eamil means she really is into it. It's just the coolest thing ever that's happened. And also we asked her what she does on Shabbos and she said she doesn't really know enough about Shabbos to do anything, and she wants to change and doesn't have the means to do so and we are all just not sure how we can help her out..
Here's what she emailed Tmima (http://us.mc525.mail.yahoo.com/mc/compose?to=learninghotline@gmail.com just btw)
"Guys its Rachel, this is the coolest thing ever. well i found out that the conference i wanted to call's pin was 74 and was over at ten O'clock. If you can give me the password for the blog you made i will try to look at it. you guys sure love camp, to all keep up! I think your hot line is the coolest thing ever. I wanna tell you what makes me stay on to hear you guys talk its not all those things you read (i x understand if you all grew up religious why do you have to read all those books?) but the respect you all show to one another. You all wait for the other one to finish talking and then ask if anyone else has anything to say... well I never heard that before. I want to thank you for the entertainment at night, one of my meds i take makes me really groggy so i end up falling asleep making me to a real night owl! "
This is what a real kiddush Hashem is...
she was not brought up frum and yet she realizes how beautiful our mitzvos are!! Even though her parents dont allow her look how Hashem worked it out for her to have a frum roomate!!
When we open our eyes we are zoche to get a glimpse of Hashem's incredible world!!
From a song one part that i feel is soo good for us to hear
Lost and alone no shelter in sight, feel his
hand on your shoulder, as he leads you towards the light!!
Fill your heart with faith only then will you find peace,
he's everywhere aorund you, just look and you will see!!
Tamar thank you soo much for this story!!
May we be zoche to open our eyes and see how Hashem is guiding every push of a button that we press!!